I think this is one of the most conflicted blog posts I've ever written. I have much to rejoice about, and much to grieve for. Where to even begin...
It's been amazing. Jasmine (left, 9) and Destiny (right, 11) came up to our home on Tuesday, and we've been sisters ever since. The two of them are such characters; it's been a blast having them around. Sure, there have been some more trying times, but God has honestly given us so much patience and time and love. I constantly remind myself of my own motto, "no regrets," as I learn to take time and enjoy the little things, like hunting for caterpillars or teaching them how to swing dance. I will continue learning, and I will continue to see how each of them needs to be loved. Continued prayers always appreciated!
I really didn't know Josh, I just remember seeing him at tournaments and thinking that he seemed like such a funny, yet sincere person that I would like to know more.
And honestly, so much of this was like a flashback to July 31st. Though I am personally so far away from everything that is happening, I remember that total shock that all his friends and family are feeling. Shock, pain, that desire to scream, cry, and be silent at the same time, what is that? That echoing "why?"
Really, this is not the end. For Josh, this is the beginning of the entire purpose of his time on earth. He was here for the same reason we are; he simply was blessed to reach that goal before us.
Josh, I didn't really know you, but I wish you could see how many people your life has touched. Just reading your blog is so impacting, especially knowing now that your desire are fulfilled in Christ. I will continue to pray for those who miss you so, so much. And when I get to heaven, let's be good friends, okay?
"To surrender a precious dream is a fearful thing, but to pursue anything
but the full measure of the glory of God’s love is a wasted life." ~Josh Eddy